Video With Complete Lyrics for 'Ill Mind of Hopsin 7'
Rapper Marcus Jamal Hopsin, popularly known as Hopsin, told the world he found God in 2012 and was ready to walk the path of righteousness. On Friday, July 18, the day he turned 28, Hopsin released an irreverently delivered new song called "Ill Mind of Hopsin 7" in which he confessed he had lost his faith and screamed at God to do something to help.
Watch the video and read the complete lyrics of his song below and tell us what you think about Hopsin's position.
WARNING: VIDEO BELOW CONTAINS EXPLICIT LANGUAGE]
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Ill Mind of Hopsin 7 (Lyrics)
Yo, f**k anybody I might alarm
Life is a tour, I sit and ride along
Taking some notes and then I write the song
I'm staring down the road my life has gone
Is this where I belong?
Is it wrong to not believe in right and wrong?
My mental state is f**king me up
And I pry the problem while asking You for some answers
But we don't have that type of bond
That my desires gone with the way that I've been living lately
If I died right now, You'd turn the fire on
Sick of this bullsh*t, n*ggas call me a sellout
Cause I hopped to Christianity so strongly then I fell out
Now I'm avoiding questions like a scared dog with his tail down
Feeling so damn humiliated because they looking at me like I'm hell bound
What story should I tell now? I'll just expose the truth
So close to the f**king edge, I should be close to You
But who the f**k are You? You never showed the proof
And I'm only f**king human yo, what am I supposed to do?
There's way too many different religions with vivid descriptions
Begging all f**king men and women to listen
I can't even beat my d*ck without getting convicted
These ain't wicked decisions, I got different intentions
I been itching to get it, I've been given assistance
But the whole f*cking system is twisted
Now I'm dealing with this backlash because
Marcus isn't a Christian
And I've been told that my sinful life is an addiction
But I can't buy it, it's just too hard to stand beside it
I need an answer and humans can't provide it
I look at the earth and the sun and I can tell a genius man designed it
It's truly mind blowing, I can't deny it
Is heaven real? Is it fake? Is it really how I fantasize it?
Where's the Holy Ghost at? How long it take man to find it?
My mind's a nonstop tape playing and I can't rewind it
You gave me the Bible and expect me not to analyze it
I'm frustrated and you provoked it
I'm not reading that mother**king book because a human wrote it
I have a mother**king brain, you should know it
You gave it to me to think to avoid every useless moment
It was a mission that I had to abort
Cause humans be lying with such an inaccurate source
It's gon' be hard to put me back on the course
Next Jehovah's Witness to come on my porch,
I swear I'm slammin' the door
A lot of folks believe it though, but I'm not surprised
Humans are f**king dumb, still thinkin' that Pac's alive
I ain't trying to take your legacy and torch it down
I'm just saying: I ain't heard shit from the horse's mouth
Just sheep always telling stories of older guys
Who were notarized by you when you finally vocalized
Now I'm supposed to bow my head and close my eyes
And somehow let the Holy Ghost arise,
Sounds like a f**king Poltergeist
Show yourself and the boom is done
Every rumor's gone, I no longer doubt this sh*t, You're the One
I'll admit that my sinful was stupid fun
And all my old habits can hop onto a roof to plunge
I'll donate to charity that could use the funds
F**k the club, instead of bitches I'd hang with a group of nuns
And everyone that I ran into would know what I came to do
I wouldn't take a step unless it was in the name of You
I hate the fact that I have to believe
You haven't been chatting with me like you did with Adam and Eve
And I ain't seen no talking snake or rabbit from trees
With an apple to eat, that sh*t never happens to me
I don't know if you do or don't exist, sh*t is driving me crazy
Send your condolences, this is me reaching to you so don't forget
If hell is truly your pit of fire and I get thrown in it
I'mma probably regret the fact that I ever wrote this sh*t
My gut feeling says it's all fake
I hate to say it but f**k it, sh*t I'd lost faith
This isn't a small phase, my perspective's all changed
My thoughts just keep picking sh*t apart all day
And in my mind I make perfect sense
If You aren't real then all my prayers aren't worth a cent
That would mean that I could just make up what my purpose is
And I could just stand up in the church and say "f**k" in the services
Man what if Jesus was a façade?
Then that would mean the government's god
I feel like they've been brainwashing us with a lot
So much that we don't even notice that we're stuck in the box
Man everything is "what if", why is it always "what if"
Planet Earth "what if", the universe "what if"
My sacrifice "what if", my afterlife "what if"
Everything that deals with you is f**king suspect
I'm f**king done, I'm f**king done
This is my f**king life and I'm living it, I'm having fun
If you really care for me prove that I need to live carefully
But I'll be damned if I put my own pleasure
Aside for an afterlife that isn't even guaranteed
We are You and You're us, stop playing games
My life's all I got, and heaven is all in my brain
And when I feel I am in hell, my ideas are what get me through pain
Do as you please, and I'll just do me, I am a human, I'll stay in my lane
Ill mind
